Sunday, March 26, 2017

A Memorial

I haven't been able to blog or write a blog post in quite awhile now. 2017 has been a rough one so far. Lately, I've thought about writing a post and I keep telling myself I have nothing important to say. Instead of talking about crochet or knitting projects I'm going to get a little personal. This post is going to be a memorial to my brother.

On February 5, 2017 my 34 year old brother tragically left this world. He left behind three children, his girlfriend, our parents, our sister, myself and many other family members and friends.

I love this pic...This sweet face 
It's a struggle everyday. The guilt is tough to deal with (for all of us). Wishing I would've called and been there more. That is the hardest part. All I can hope for is peace of mind for myself and all who are struggling right now. 

Our last photo together
I worry about my mom, and his girlfriend, and my sister the most. Death changes us forever. I hope it will become less raw over time. I work around death on a regular basis, but seeing a loved one so young leave... its just devastating.

I think of the past, happy times and his children.




one of my favorites


He was a music lover, and I can't listen to music very much right now. 

He also loved UNC basketball...that is something we shared. We're both die-hard Carolina fans. I do watch the games and think how happy he would be if they were to go all the way this year. Go Heels!

I just wish he would have seen in himself what all of us could and did. He had so much to offer to this world and the people he left behind.

Depression can be a silent killer. Take part in the lives of those who are struggling. Call more, visit more, and be present. Guilt and regret are heavy burdens to carry for those left behind.